After a loss, we all have our own way of dealing with our lives. Some of us may retreat, at least for awhile, to lick our wounds and reassess our positions. Don and I have known losses in our lives, big time. We both lost our spouses, coincidentally 5 days apart in June 2002. We found each other a few years later and began a new life together. But we still remember those lonely days after the loss of our spouses, and how it changed our lives.
Shadow was a part of our new joint life. He was a special part of our daily routine. Now that he’s gone, how will our routine change?
When we go shopping or out to dinner or to visit friends, when we return to our home on wheels, we will no longer be greeted at the door by an insistent puppy wanting to go outside to piddle. We won’t be pestered at the breakfast/lunch/dinner table for goodies from people-food. We won’t have to remember to give his treats after dinner, Milk Bones and Dingos.
We won’t have to constantly try to quiet him whenever he starts barking at whatever is happening outside, whether it’s people talking, dogs walking, or anything else that tweaks his super-human hearing or otherwise annoys him.
We also won’t have to worry about him when we’re on a bus tour that starts at 7:45 am and ends at 8:30 pm. We won’t have to wonder what we will do when we have to leave the motorhome on a ferry overnight and sleep in a berth topside, and we can’t take him with us, and we can only visit him during specified hours. And we won’t have to be concerned about going to a hotel for a night or two on a tour that requires it.
We won’t have to worry that he will become prey for wild animals as we tour Alaska or other frontiers of civilization.
But we won’t have his adoring looks, his hugs and snuggles, his joy at sharing a walk, a roll in the grass, an acceptance of a treat. We won’t be able to walk the neighborhood with him and meet other dogs, seeing how they communicate with each other. We won’t share his joy of running off leash on the beach or in a field.
We definitely miss our Shadow, but we will adapt our lives and outlook to take advantage of being pet-free, at least for now. We will talk about adopting a rescue animal in the future. But that’s still a long way off. In the meantime, we’ll get our puppy fixes from other people’s dogs, and maybe pet a cat or two as well.
We’re definitely healing from this loss, and appreciate so much the outpouring of love and sympathy from so many friends and family members. Thank you, one and all, for your messages. Love and hugs to everyone. We will be okay.